"white" christmas

it snowed
finally -- properly.

i wouldnt call today a white christmas but
the night was definitely beautiful.

i never knew snow fell like tt
maybe i could fall in love with winter afterall (:

night before HELL WEEK

hell week begins tmw.
more like it has begun TONIGHT.

HELLLLO PEOPLE

HELLO PEOPLE
PLEASE HOLD ON TO THE LETTERS AND CARDS
THAT YOU PLAN ON SENDING ME
FOR THE NEXT 1 WEEK.


I WILL BE CHANGING MY ADDRESS (:
SO PLEASE ASK ME PERSONALLY FOR ME NEW ADDRESS!

my today

today was just a day that didnt start off well
the alarm and phone ring never sounded so annoying
ok im using this word 'annoying' too often these day.
i couldnt be bothered to even apply lotion on my face in this cold weather

ok it's definitely p.m.s
right.
but this is just too much.
i'm annoyed at almost everything

i was so tempted to scream at that little girl who was crying away in the train
i actually ROLLED my eyes at that weird guy who was making a fool out of himself in class
i actually said 'no' straight away when my senior asked me if i wanted a free meal w him
i actually pressed 'reject' when my friends called

everything's just frustrating

maybe im not used to this weather
and i am indeed lonely

but i cant help it
i really wish thr was someone i could lean on

not asking for a boyfriend
but a friend
whom i can smile with
laugh with
and coat up my loneliness.

im not asking for love
but care
wishing there's someone who's worried if ive taken my dinner
someone who wonders if i'm doing well in the cold
someone who just walks w me quietly especially right now.


argh another emo post.
some people might start thinking im freaking emo!

argh. i misssss cottoncandy and lollipops.

changgggggggging

time changes people.
time changes a country.
time changes the world.


time, has changed ME.


time
has taught me first love never lasts

time
has made me allow my hair to be dyed
made me allow my ears to be pierced
after more time, time, has also allowed me to pierce them again

time
has taught me NATURAL isnt always the best afterall.

time
has made me buy circle lenses to make my minute eyes bigger

time
has made me allow myself to do my nails

time
has made me realise guys, boys,
aint tt necessary in life anymore

time
has made me so open-minded
i can actually smile back at anyone now

oh wells.

i'm changing

yes, im changing.

omg i can't wait

that idiot

went to e-mart to buy water
they only sold them in 6s
so roommie and i decided to share
and carried 3 bottles each

since we put them in boxes (free)
i thought i was gonna die
i mean WE
but the thing is
there is this guy
who happened to be carrying a box of pizza
his pizza box's edge hit against the knuckle of my thumb
but he walked away as if nothing had happened
so ya i was like 'diao, he doesnt even bother apologising?'

and i only realised later when it started to sting real bad tt
he had CUT my skin
and it was bleeding

just imagine
cold freezing weather
open wound
it was like freezebite

argh if i ever bump into him
im gonna make him buy me a pan of pizza!

lord i come to you...

Power of your love

Lord I come to You
Let my heart be changed, renewed
Flowing from the grace
That I’ve found in You
Lord I’ve come to know
The weakenesses I see in me
Will be stripped away
By the power of Your love

Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side
And as I wait
I’ll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love

Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love
As You live in me
Lord renew my mind
As Your will unfolds in my life
In living every day
By the power of Your love

And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love

good afternoon, sunshine

today's weather's nice (:

the past week

the past week have been tiring

friday night
i went to HONGIK UNIVERSITY with my roommate
initially with the intention to CLUB

but we didnt.
we got scared that
we, dressed up sooooo nicely, will be taken advantage of. HAHAHAH kiddin'
we kinda freaked out when we saw 2 guys stopping 3 girls and asking them to follow them. we started running. LOL

we ate our dinner around 12a.m. at some super classy restaurant
then walked and walked
and went to a few super highclass bars and drinking places
it was too dark for any pictures but ya

we came back home around 6a.m.
then i went straight to SEOUL STATION to go to my aunts place

i neeeed slp.

hair day

im gonna do my hair!

supposedly 40,000W
which is approx 50 bucks in sg

to dye my hair
just the upper part (roots + abt 12cm)

but they're having dc for my school students
so im doing it at 20,000W

hmm. ive never dyed my hair in sg before
so i dont know if this is cheap or not but oh wellllls

ouch, my lips

the aluminium foil cut across
my upper lip while
i was stuffing my lunch
into my mouth
and now it's bleeding :(

and i cant even tell tt to ppl cos it's freaking embarrassing.
argh.
brushing teeth is a torture.

mr. wrong

omg i hate the weather
it's making me THINK ALOT

mr not bad
mr not so bad
mr quite bad
mr super bad
mr damn bad

mr mr mr mr
so many mr. wrongs i have in my life.

i need to meet more mr. rights soon.

the parcel

the parcel has finally arrived!

i have been going to the office every few hours to check if it was here yet
since benjamin has paid like $10 extra to have it sent over earlier.but i couldnt find any.

so after lunch today i dragged my roommate with me
and went in to DIG the shelves full of parcels

the person-in-charge was like "someone sent you presents??winter clothes??"
me and my roommate said u unison "we wouldnt be this eager if it were winter clothes we need!!! its CHOCOLATESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!"

it took me about ten minutes to finally spot it. it was right on the top shelve and it so happened tt the postman had not recorded down the details of the parcel with the dormitory stuff for two reasons.
1) he did not read english
2) benjamin's handwriting was quite bad. i couldnt tell if he wrote 1838 or 1038. HAHa.
i was like "THERE!! ITS THERE!! SEE I TOLD YOU IT WILL BE HERE!!!"
HE KINDA FREAKED OUT COS MY VOICE WAS SO LOUD, HE WENT "SORRRRRRRRRY"
HE'S like 40+yrs old btw. hahahah

but anyway he was so impressed tt my parcel was the only parcel he has seen with SOOOO much stamps on it he asked if i could give him the stamps. hahah

we came back to our room
and even before i put down my bag i went straight for the pen knife to open my parcelllllll

wheeeeee omg (: gummies and chocolates

thanks ben!!! seriously
thought ~$80 was definitely an over-spend
and yes, it has made me feel super duper guilty,
and if i knew it cost so much
i wouldnt have let him send me!!!

but
it's already here and OMG im damn happy i can fly~
todays a good day

they say the first snow is coming tonight
then i have an appointment for facial
and ive already done my hw for friday

tmw and thursday will be busy days
but i know
at least for today
im happy (:

thanks ben for
the choc and gummies and letter and guitar pick(is this how its spelt)
and
thanks
for
caring
and for making my day (:

the weather

winter's just about here
or i would say, winter's here already!

it's so cold
i literally couldnt feel my toes for like 1 hour. no joke.

yes i was born right in the middle of winter, snowing and all
but i think winter is not. my. season.

i hate it that its soooooo cold outside
then warm inside
then cold outside
then warm inside
with the weather soooooooooooo dry as well
i feel my lips cracking and fingers peeling.
and things like that

i wouldnt trade this weather for singapore's hot sun
but it really freaking cold :S

at least its raining in singapore
the kind of rain ive always dreamt of being drenched under.

ahhh
im feeling 'home'sick.

sorry seems to be the hardest word

as you went on typing on the keyboard
my tears fell
every drop that hit against my hands
felt so warm at first but in a split second turned so cold
it got me shuddering.

as you went on telling me how you were doing
ever coating your words so carefully
to make sure you seemed to be doing so well
i could see the hurt so obviously you were trying to hide
it got me crinching.

as you went on smiling and laughing
that everything was fine
i could hear your voice pause
your breath was uneven
it got me silent.

as i read on and listened on
i realized
what a horrible friend i have been
what a bitch i have been

when you said everything was fine and i had believed so
and gave you more load to carry

when you smiled, i felt it was ok that i cried
and gave you a responsibility to make me feel better

when you needed to be alone i happened to need someone
and gave you no choice but to be there for me


but i realized
ive never ever lightened YOUR load
ive never made the initiative to make YOU feel better
ive never been there for YOU.
it has always been me me me.
too busy with my life.

and i call myself your bestfriend
sorry.........

RONALD RONALD

im starting this at 00.13 here
i assumed i will take about 30 minutes or so to write and wanted it to be the concluding letter to your bday(:



happy birthday, ronald
omg it's 1244 now.. was talking to my roommie abt guys and her failures with blind dates.

i have no idea what i should write about
i think i wrote abt how happy a birthday i would want you to have today in the postcard i sent you which reached like 2 weeks early.i never knew it could reach singapore so quickly.
so i will just write
about how much i appreciate you.
dont be disappointed tt it's short ok.
it just goes to know how much more there are that we have got to show each other (:

thanks ronald
for
being my leader for chingay
for
making me your assistant (the best choice u have made in yr 2007)
for
living nearby for walks
for
the shy comments that so made my day
for
the wonderful fabulous meal you took the entire morning to cook
for
not feeling offended when, to me, the veg tt was supposed to taste like peanut butter tasted just like a normal veggie
for
respecting any of my choice despite the hurt i brought
for
instead of hating me, you 'wrapped' me with warmth and was always there to make me feel better when i was hurt (ok you couldve hated me without showing it)
for
bearing w the extra pain right after your operation

but i want to thank God for.....

for YOU
and
for having had YOU in my life

you are the BIG FISH of my life (erm weird and i dont see the link but ya. sounds quite nice ;) right?)



happy 20th birthday, old man (:
<3

happiness

happiness comes in the simplest ways.
yes it does.
so where's mine for today?
argh
my body is killing me.

annoyed

ive heard stories that staying too long in front of the computer would expose people to some form of ions that will cause negative emotions.

i think thats exactly whats happening to me right now.

im super irritated by EVERYTHING.
even some of my closest friends.

i really need a break.
like just going out to the beach
or swimming for hours
or slp without having anything to worry about at all, without nightmares or even dreams.

roommate says it could be because im not used to being 'alone'
but this isnt the way it should be

i should be doing fine,
in fact, just until yesterday, i was!
wth is going on.