Hay un amigo en mi!

so long!

2010-09-25T13:25:00.000+09:00

i almost forgot my password to this account :D

shit

2010-05-19T22:11:00.002+09:00

i made a great mistake this time
and yeap this time, im really really in the wrong.

argh
once again i realize how important it is that we be careful of what we say
especially in friendships that are more valuable
and at the same time, vulnerable

it has been less than a few weeks that things are finally back to normal for us and
now i ruined it again

zzz
my mouth is my enemy.

DANIEL i misssss you ♡

2010-05-16T14:16:00.002+09:00

friendships

2010-05-16T13:56:00.002+09:00

while talking to daniel just a few moments ago, he asked
"how come arrun and you are so close?"

and hmm, it got me thinking
and while daniel is eating his lunch
i decided to write down my thoughts :D

it's really strange really
whether we would define our friendship as "CLOSE".
we don't know everything about each other's lives
we don't have that~~ much in common either
but, shall i call it 'chemistry'?
or comfortability?
whatever it is between him and i
i dont think i can explain

ok, i got distracted, daniel just BURPED! :S

meeting ONCE, for the first time, in NYJC
then noooooooooooooooo contact for 2 years
and then the SECOND time in july 2009
and then the THIRD time this year
but why is it tt i feel so much more connected to him than some friends i've been talking to almost everyday for years?
really strange.
arrun, our friendship's STRANGE HAHAH
but whatever it is
im really thankful to have met him
and he is by date the guy with the nicest wink everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
even daniel can't beat him to that!

yeap. i guess i need to get back to skype now so yeap
ill write a nicer one about you later, arr ^^

♡

less than one month before end of term

2010-05-05T02:06:00.002+09:00

this term has been so hectic and fast
i cant believe it has been 2 weeks since mid terms ended
im still feeling the after effect of sleep that was never enough

its children's day in korea
and a national public holiday
so that parents can PLAY WITH THEIR KIDS
i think its quite a sensible idea
anyway i will be going to do some cooking and baking at my roomie's house tmw
and write survey questions
and watch movie
and clean the damn mould-filled fridge in my office!

long distance is hard, just as i have expected
i know it is supposed to be hard
but it still hurts to miss and be missed
i wish i were so rich i could fly to singapore in my private helicopter every weekend
i miss him and
i miss ruffling his hair :]

oh wells
not much time left before term ends
which means itll be nearer to our MEETING day!
(:

first week of school

2010-03-07T22:00:00.002+09:00

school has started
but nth feels 'new' or 'fresh' at all
it all feels the same.
it's a pity the freshness is gone, it wouldve been much more motivating to have the semester start with pink and yellow flowers and green trees
but all i see right now is construction
good that the schools gonna look better but
it just makes the weather feel colder

quite a bad week i must say
a guy in my cca i knew i would probably not get along well with right from the start
has been driving me and my entire cca NUTS.
i dont even want to start on this
but this has blwoing out the 'fire' i had in my cca
i hope this will all be over soon

it's been one week since ive come to korea
and one week since i havent seen him
but it feels like a billion years
it's so dreadful to think there is about 20 more weeks left for us to meet.
argh.

i hope this week will be a better week.

I DIDNT GET TO EAT POPCORN!

2010-02-16T00:33:00.008+09:00

i actually wrote the first part of this entry in singapore but it wasnt complete enough for me to post it.so yup here it goes, FINALLLY.

i have been tooo lazy to actually come online after coming to singapore!
since i've just finished my article for the month, i decided to sit down and write a 'lil about the past 2 weeks i have been in singapore.

its probably gonna be quite long so i dont think anyone would bother reading it HAHAHAHAHAA

spending the ENTIRE night making chocolates for my friends (which i forgot to bring out most of the time and still have some left in the fridge in sg),
leaving korea at -5 degrees in the wee hour of the morning,
delayed flight time and yet
over-load which almost cost me $80 for exceeding 7kg
so the exceeding 7 kg had to be hand carried.

it could be considered a bad start.
but oh wells. (:

hongkong was beautiful
being alone in a foreign land
looking for the places that the internet talked so much about
queueing up to get the currency changed
talking in SIMPLE english and chinese
being responded to in catonese which i had noooooooooo knowledge of

was definitely a new experience
really fun and exciting

but the bag was so heavy
before 11pm,
i started to feel exhausted and lonely
so i went back to the airport and slpt on the chairs.....new experience as well (:

anyway i finally reached singapore
almost 2 hours later than scheduled because there were heavy traffic in the air

daniel was waiting
and i had no chance to tell him that the flight would be reaching late
so he probably had to wait for real long

it was real awkward to meet daniel at first
being attached to him over the screen
seeing him real life no longer as a friend/senior/same-bday-person,
face to face was reallllllllllllllllllll awkward!
hahahah i still recall he put his hands on my waist and said "so how were you" or sth along that line
wow i had goosebumps allll over.
damn awkward. haahha

(why do i have a feeling this entire post from now on would be about you, daniel?)

anyway we took at cab home
(our initial plan was to just take a train home to warm things up between us)
because i felt soooooooooooo dirty sticky and smelly after not bathing for 1.5days.

so yeap. we went to bishan to eat FRIED KWAY TEOWWWWWW
and he ate sth which i know not the name :D

so yeap
blah blah

so for one month
i got to meet many of my friends
and also,
alottt of daniel (:
hehehehhehe

initially i thought what daniel said about
meeting each other every day
was kinda unrealistic
and all
but i was really impressed that he made an effort (i made someee efforts too RIGHT)
and we really did meet every single day without fail
still, however, it felt so short.
shit la this is becoming a personal letter.
im gonna change topic
daniel ill complete this in a letter NEXTTTTTTTTTTTT time ;)
or we can talk about this tonight ;) lu

ok where was i
yeap, i got to meet alot of my friends
but it was a pity one month was definitely not enough to have many heart to heart talks w some friends
and also, i wasnt able to meet many of my friends who were busy with army and the coming uni exams
so yeap.

but the interesting thing about this trip was that
of those friends i got to meet again
i felt differently towards some friendships
just as i was impressed with the development and depth of some friendships,
i was also disappointed in some.
it was also a time for me to think about some friendships again

YEAP that, i wouldnt wanna elaborate any further before things and names get disclosed

omg i went clubbing
i recommmend EVERYONE to go clubbing with your gf/bf
EHHEHEHEHEHEHEEEEE i liked it ALOT
i dont think clubbing would be the same anymore, (not like i go clubbing every week, but still HEHEHEH)
drank quite abit but daniel was almost always there to 'limit' my drinking
hahah see kenneth i told you we should have met alone HAHAHHAHAHA
ate quite alot.
omg jumbo i miss you.
curry i miss you.
naannnn i missss you.
stingray i miss you.
FOOOOOD i miss you!

im gonna upload the photos on fb soon yeap/
oh, btw, ive got my target of 1k photos taken this time
(if i include the photos taken w my friends' cameras as well ;))
YIPPPPEEE

ookokokok lets stop for now. :)

accepting reality

2010-01-27T11:21:00.002+09:00

ok the flight schedule cannot be changed
the airline actually scolded me
oh wells
im supposed to move into my hostel on either 27th or 28th
but ill be in sg then so i might have to beg my roomie to move in 'with' my name
her eyes are so much bigger than mine i hope she will be allowed in hehe

thats not the only problem bothering me
application for my next semester is on the second week of feb
which means i will be in sg AGAIN during tt time
so im gonna have to BEG my senior to help me out.
i really need to plan my time better, argh

i spent ALOT of money in the past few days
i finally thought
one facial = $40
5 facials - $200

$200 worth of facial PRODUCTS (those super good ones)
will last me abt 6mths
so if i become more diligent,
i might get BETTER skin with this much

so yeap i decided to invest
in eye cream, lotions, emulsions, essence, peeling gel, mask, sleeping gel, hydrator etc
so yeap about $200+++ gone.
i dont know if im gonna regret this
but i hope i wont.

no much pimples now,
so i just have to make sure i am consistent with MAINTAINING this

i bought contact lenses too
haha slight brown to match the colour of my hair
im not used to long-term lenses

ok

reality
im left with....6days?
and i havent packed for sg OR for hostel
die.

bleahx

ahhh

2010-01-26T23:26:00.000+09:00

omg im gonna be thr in a week's time
omg

I LOVE YOU

2010-01-26T23:12:00.002+09:00

YOU IMPATIENT PIG!
(:

BEER

2010-01-24T17:07:00.001+09:00

alcohol is one scary thing.
it makes you..think even more.
it makes you...doubt
it makes you wonder....about everything.

shiat.

2010-01-23T15:41:00.002+09:00

i'm feeling so..........lost?
i dont know how im supposed to describe this churning feeling inside me,
definitely not food that's being digested,
just....helpless? desperate? nervous? argh i dont know.

i actually booked the flight tickets on nov23 2009
exactly 2 months ago.
started planning it wayyy before.

one of the most exciting part of this particular trip was supposed to be:
"TRAVELLING WITH MY ROOMIE"
she actually was soooo excited she read more than 4 books on singapore and and and
started talking to me about different food that even i've never really tried alot myself,and telling me about how much she wanted to see ZOUK and orchard road and clarke quay..

and BABAM!
her scholarship interview and meeting falls right in the middle of the week that she's gonna be in sg.

the problem doesnt stop here.

we booked the ticket that would allow us to stay in HK for like 23hours.
intentionally in order to maybe, probably shop a little and tour HK
but is she's gonna cancel the flight and im going alone
i might have to stay at HK airport for that 23 hours myself
that's like wasting one whole day when i can spend it with at least one more friend in singapore. argh. now all i can do is pray that someone cancels the flight that i want so i can take it. oh god. please. if they allow this i can go back to sg on 31st jan.

argh i feel soooooo stressed for no biggg reason.

changed flight time

2010-01-16T21:55:00.002+09:00

i cant be bothered to check if its korean time or sg time.

bad hair day

2010-01-16T18:56:00.002+09:00

after MONTHSSSS of thinking, i finally decided to do sth about my hair.

what made me?
i went to the korean sauna with my mummy in the morning
and took my weight.
ok; taking into consideration the number of layers of stockings and innner coats i was wearing..at most i could reduce the weight by 1kg.
but STILL. that is more than 5 kg more than what i weighed in jc.

then i looked at the mirror
and saw my hair coming down to half my back (the longest i;ve ever kept), puffed up because of the perm.
then i thought
MAYBE, just MAYBE, PROBABLY the weigh is like tt because of my hair
HOPEFULLY

so i went to cut it.

but. argh.
4 hours of treatment etc, and
see what i got.
i told the hairdresser to help me look a little YOUNGER and more FEMININE
now i look like a primary school kid
daniel says i look 21. --> weird.
and feminine???? no way.
daniel has no comments about how i look. -.-
im just gonnna hope my STRAIGHT fringe will grow back by the time i take the plane (:

argh. i wanna lose weight.
im gonna swim every morning. hopefully.
SOMEONE/EVERYONE MOTIVATE ME PLeASE.

to: DANIEL

2010-01-16T18:51:00.003+09:00

he wanted me to write sth about/to him. hmm.
hmm.
hmmm.

no fair.
i miss you (:
good enough a post right, daniel? ^^

my new year resolution

2010-01-13T23:22:00.002+09:00

im toooo lazy to take out a piece of paper and a pen to write down my new year resolutions for 2010.
wow 2010. just typing it itself feels weird.. feels...NEW
ANYWAY so yeap, i decided to be positive and write it before CHINESE new yr comes (:

looking back at 2009;
#1 stop biting my nails
- yeap i've stopped biting my nails
they're long enough to make it real hard when it comes to taking out my contact lenses

#2 be in the top 20% of the cohort ALL THE TIME
- yeap i achieved that

#3 read alot of books
- er....oops. maybe 3..

#4 get a job
- not exactly but my cca can count as a job, it pays (:
heheheheh nice excuse

#5 i will exercise regularly
- wow this is one i totally FAILED to achieve!!!! :X

#6 i will have greater control over my temper and emotions
- over my temper, yea i guess. over my emotions.....NAH.

#7 i will be HAPPY
- well i met a few true friends, but i think this was a yr i found who were my real friends and who were not..so yea. about 50-50?

so.
for ************** 2010 **************
i'll take my time. i have till feb 14 (:
#1
#2
#3
#4
#5
#6

snowboarddddd

2010-01-10T18:55:00.002+09:00

back from the Hyundai Seongwoo Resort (ok i dont know the exact spelling)
but yea, we brought our car thr, it was a 3 hour drive
and dad was complaining about why we havent gotten our license,
making him drive ALLL the way.
he says he dreams of the day my sis and i will take turns to drive the car and bring them around. hehe i'm gonna delay getting my license for as long as can HOHO

tried SNOWBOARDING for the first time
i wanted to try skiing too but i remembered jonathan seow boasting to me about how good he was at snowboarding and how much he enjoyed it
so my ENTIRE family took the family learning course, which was freaking expensive,
but worth it.
my whole body's aching now, so imagine the pain my parents are going through!
but it was soooooooooooooo fun
i'm gonna go find jonathan to snowboard one day
heheh

our family, all four of us, finally got the chance to get tgt,
and this was probably the first trip we're having in years since we went to china quite a few yrs back.
we talked about alot of things,
a bit of crying, a bit of laughing, a bit of loud voices
but after everything
i think it has brought our family to the next level of understanding
i really love my family.

ohoh talking about my trip,
the korean drama "snow queen" was filmed in this resort
AND
we stayed in the exact room that HYUNBIN acted in.
so i took quite alot of pictures in the room
as PROOOF that i really went there HEHEHHEH
and there was a concert because it was the resort's Xth bday
so i saw JEWELERY, AFTERSCHOOL and SHINEEEEEE
hahahahahhahahaah
and they had this fireworks ceremony at 9
and it was snowing sooooooooo heavily,
snow+fireworks is reallllllllllllllllllllllllly beautiful la!~!!

ok. i just forgot what i was gonna write next.
ergh. ok i'll write other stuff on another post (:

as white as SNOW

2010-01-04T21:20:00.004+09:00

i never knew it could snow for so long.
12 hours non-stop and still snowing.
they say it's the heaviest snow in like 100 over years.
in the morning they said it's the heaviest in 12 yrs
then 20 yrs
then 30 yrs
then 80 yrs
now 100+ crazy.

but it's freaking beautiful!!!!!!
i was walking to school and
THANK GOD ITS HOLIDAYS AND THERE WERE HARDLY ANY CARS
the floor was filled with clean white snow -- knee height

i love my school,especially so during winter.
i think this is when she looks the mostttttttttttttttttt beautiful.
i showed arrr the photo of my sch and he said it looks like hogwarts.
heheh i looooooove the phone booooooth!! omg i hope it's stilllll white tmw. im gonna take more photos.

my friend wanted to make a bet.
5 rounds of scissors paper stone
and the loser has to walk in the snow-ed pavement.
she lost.
so she's there (: watch the video!

oops. wrong video.
this is the video i took while walking to school (:

random blabbling

2009-12-29T11:14:00.002+09:00

ergh.
i dont know where and how i got the virus but im sick anyway.
my throat's swollen i cant swallow even water
so my mum had to cook porridge for me.
and i had to cancel a lunch appointment with my junior as well.

anyhow.
yeap. just feel like blabbling my thoughts

etiquette:
met someone recently.
from another country i know well of.
he came to korea and we met up.
and me and my roommate brought him to eat some of the rare but not too expensive dishes in korea.
so, how should a tourist react to a food you've never tried before?
he was "EWWW"-ING away
"oh this is probably the worst looking food im eating in my entire life"
and all.
how would a KOREAN feel when someone says that.
it was totally a culture insult.
i wouldnt call myself a nationalist or patriotic korean
but i definitely didnt feel good.
i dont think he even realised he was being so rude.
ah whatever.
i had to say, i was freaking embarrassed that this is the first encounter that my roommate had with the people of the country i love so much. yeap.

ok i'll write more later.

"white" christmas

2009-12-25T21:17:00.001+09:00

it snowed
finally -- properly.

i wouldnt call today a white christmas but
the night was definitely beautiful.

i never knew snow fell like tt
maybe i could fall in love with winter afterall (:

night before HELL WEEK

2009-12-13T17:39:00.001+09:00

hell week begins tmw.
more like it has begun TONIGHT.

HELLLLO PEOPLE

2009-12-10T18:20:00.001+09:00

HELLO PEOPLE
PLEASE HOLD ON TO THE LETTERS AND CARDS
THAT YOU PLAN ON SENDING ME
FOR THE NEXT 1 WEEK.

I WILL BE CHANGING MY ADDRESS (:
SO PLEASE ASK ME PERSONALLY FOR ME NEW ADDRESS!

my today

2009-12-09T22:47:00.003+09:00

today was just a day that didnt start off well
the alarm and phone ring never sounded so annoying
ok im using this word 'annoying' too often these day.
i couldnt be bothered to even apply lotion on my face in this cold weather

ok it's definitely p.m.s
right.
but this is just too much.
i'm annoyed at almost everything

i was so tempted to scream at that little girl who was crying away in the train
i actually ROLLED my eyes at that weird guy who was making a fool out of himself in class
i actually said 'no' straight away when my senior asked me if i wanted a free meal w him
i actually pressed 'reject' when my friends called

everything's just frustrating

maybe im not used to this weather
and i am indeed lonely

but i cant help it
i really wish thr was someone i could lean on

not asking for a boyfriend
but a friend
whom i can smile with
laugh with
and coat up my loneliness.

im not asking for love
but care
wishing there's someone who's worried if ive taken my dinner
someone who wonders if i'm doing well in the cold
someone who just walks w me quietly especially right now.

argh another emo post.
some people might start thinking im freaking emo!

argh. i misssss cottoncandy and lollipops.

changgggggggging

2009-12-04T02:09:00.002+09:00

time changes people.
time changes a country.
time changes the world.

time, has changed ME.

time
has taught me first love never lasts

time
has made me allow my hair to be dyed
made me allow my ears to be pierced
after more time, time, has also allowed me to pierce them again

time
has taught me NATURAL isnt always the best afterall.

time
has made me buy circle lenses to make my minute eyes bigger

time
has made me allow myself to do my nails

time
has made me realise guys, boys,
aint tt necessary in life anymore

time
has made me so open-minded
i can actually smile back at anyone now

oh wells.

i'm changing

2009-12-03T14:50:00.002+09:00

yes, im changing.

omg i can't wait

2009-11-26T19:22:00.002+09:00

that idiot

2009-11-22T20:44:00.002+09:00

went to e-mart to buy water
they only sold them in 6s
so roommie and i decided to share
and carried 3 bottles each

since we put them in boxes (free)
i thought i was gonna die
i mean WE
but the thing is
there is this guy
who happened to be carrying a box of pizza
his pizza box's edge hit against the knuckle of my thumb
but he walked away as if nothing had happened
so ya i was like 'diao, he doesnt even bother apologising?'

and i only realised later when it started to sting real bad tt
he had CUT my skin
and it was bleeding

just imagine
cold freezing weather
open wound
it was like freezebite

argh if i ever bump into him
im gonna make him buy me a pan of pizza!

lord i come to you...

2009-11-20T22:50:00.001+09:00

Power of your love

Lord I come to You
Let my heart be changed, renewed
Flowing from the grace
That I’ve found in You
Lord I’ve come to know
The weakenesses I see in me
Will be stripped away
By the power of Your love

Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side
And as I wait
I’ll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love

Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love
As You live in me
Lord renew my mind
As Your will unfolds in my life
In living every day
By the power of Your love

And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love

good afternoon, sunshine

2009-11-19T14:29:00.001+09:00

today's weather's nice (:

the past week

2009-11-15T13:02:00.002+09:00

the past week have been tiring

friday night
i went to HONGIK UNIVERSITY with my roommate
initially with the intention to CLUB

but we didnt.
we got scared that
we, dressed up sooooo nicely, will be taken advantage of. HAHAHAH kiddin'
we kinda freaked out when we saw 2 guys stopping 3 girls and asking them to follow them. we started running. LOL

we ate our dinner around 12a.m. at some super classy restaurant
then walked and walked
and went to a few super highclass bars and drinking places
it was too dark for any pictures but ya

we came back home around 6a.m.
then i went straight to SEOUL STATION to go to my aunts place

i neeeed slp.

hair day

2009-11-10T15:55:00.002+09:00

im gonna do my hair!

supposedly 40,000W
which is approx 50 bucks in sg

to dye my hair
just the upper part (roots + abt 12cm)

but they're having dc for my school students
so im doing it at 20,000W

hmm. ive never dyed my hair in sg before
so i dont know if this is cheap or not but oh wellllls

ouch, my lips

2009-11-10T15:21:00.003+09:00

the aluminium foil cut across
my upper lip while
i was stuffing my lunch
into my mouth
and now it's bleeding :(

and i cant even tell tt to ppl cos it's freaking embarrassing.
argh.
brushing teeth is a torture.

mr. wrong

2009-11-09T14:41:00.002+09:00

omg i hate the weather
it's making me THINK ALOT

mr not bad
mr not so bad
mr quite bad
mr super bad
mr damn bad

mr mr mr mr
so many mr. wrongs i have in my life.

i need to meet more mr. rights soon.

the parcel

2009-11-03T14:51:00.004+09:00

the parcel has finally arrived!

i have been going to the office every few hours to check if it was here yet
since benjamin has paid like $10 extra to have it sent over earlier.but i couldnt find any.

so after lunch today i dragged my roommate with me
and went in to DIG the shelves full of parcels

the person-in-charge was like "someone sent you presents??winter clothes??"
me and my roommate said u unison "we wouldnt be this eager if it were winter clothes we need!!! its CHOCOLATESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!"

it took me about ten minutes to finally spot it. it was right on the top shelve and it so happened tt the postman had not recorded down the details of the parcel with the dormitory stuff for two reasons.
1) he did not read english
2) benjamin's handwriting was quite bad. i couldnt tell if he wrote 1838 or 1038. HAHa.
i was like "THERE!! ITS THERE!! SEE I TOLD YOU IT WILL BE HERE!!!"
HE KINDA FREAKED OUT COS MY VOICE WAS SO LOUD, HE WENT "SORRRRRRRRRY"
HE'S like 40+yrs old btw. hahahah

but anyway he was so impressed tt my parcel was the only parcel he has seen with SOOOO much stamps on it he asked if i could give him the stamps. hahah

we came back to our room
and even before i put down my bag i went straight for the pen knife to open my parcelllllll

wheeeeee omg (: gummies and chocolates

thanks ben!!! seriously
thought ~$80 was definitely an over-spend
and yes, it has made me feel super duper guilty,
and if i knew it cost so much
i wouldnt have let him send me!!!

but
it's already here and OMG im damn happy i can fly~
todays a good day

they say the first snow is coming tonight
then i have an appointment for facial
and ive already done my hw for friday

tmw and thursday will be busy days
but i know
at least for today
im happy (:

thanks ben for
the choc and gummies and letter and guitar pick(is this how its spelt)
and
thanks
for
caring
and for making my day (:

the weather

2009-11-02T18:44:00.003+09:00

winter's just about here
or i would say, winter's here already!

it's so cold
i literally couldnt feel my toes for like 1 hour. no joke.

yes i was born right in the middle of winter, snowing and all
but i think winter is not. my. season.

i hate it that its soooooo cold outside
then warm inside
then cold outside
then warm inside
with the weather soooooooooooo dry as well
i feel my lips cracking and fingers peeling.
and things like that

i wouldnt trade this weather for singapore's hot sun
but it really freaking cold :S

at least its raining in singapore
the kind of rain ive always dreamt of being drenched under.

ahhh
im feeling 'home'sick.

sorry seems to be the hardest word

2009-11-02T15:33:00.005+09:00

as you went on typing on the keyboard
my tears fell
every drop that hit against my hands
felt so warm at first but in a split second turned so cold
it got me shuddering.

as you went on telling me how you were doing
ever coating your words so carefully
to make sure you seemed to be doing so well
i could see the hurt so obviously you were trying to hide
it got me crinching.

as you went on smiling and laughing
that everything was fine
i could hear your voice pause
your breath was uneven
it got me silent.

as i read on and listened on
i realized
what a horrible friend i have been
what a bitch i have been

when you said everything was fine and i had believed so
and gave you more load to carry

when you smiled, i felt it was ok that i cried
and gave you a responsibility to make me feel better

when you needed to be alone i happened to need someone
and gave you no choice but to be there for me

but i realized
ive never ever lightened YOUR load
ive never made the initiative to make YOU feel better
ive never been there for YOU.
it has always been me me me.
too busy with my life.

and i call myself your bestfriend
sorry.........

RONALD RONALD

2009-10-31T23:32:00.005+09:00

im starting this at 00.13 here
i assumed i will take about 30 minutes or so to write and wanted it to be the concluding letter to your bday(:

happy birthday, ronald
omg it's 1244 now.. was talking to my roommie abt guys and her failures with blind dates.

i have no idea what i should write about
i think i wrote abt how happy a birthday i would want you to have today in the postcard i sent you which reached like 2 weeks early.i never knew it could reach singapore so quickly.
so i will just write
about how much i appreciate you.
dont be disappointed tt it's short ok.
it just goes to know how much more there are that we have got to show each other (:

thanks ronald
for
being my leader for chingay
for
making me your assistant (the best choice u have made in yr 2007)
for
living nearby for walks
for
the shy comments that so made my day
for
the wonderful fabulous meal you took the entire morning to cook
for
not feeling offended when, to me, the veg tt was supposed to taste like peanut butter tasted just like a normal veggie
for
respecting any of my choice despite the hurt i brought
for
instead of hating me, you 'wrapped' me with warmth and was always there to make me feel better when i was hurt (ok you couldve hated me without showing it)
for
bearing w the extra pain right after your operation

but i want to thank God for.....

for YOU
and
for having had YOU in my life

you are the BIG FISH of my life (erm weird and i dont see the link but ya. sounds quite nice ;) right?)

happy 20th birthday, old man (:
<3

happiness

2009-10-29T17:11:00.004+09:00

happiness comes in the simplest ways.
yes it does.
so where's mine for today?
argh
my body is killing me.

annoyed

2009-10-29T00:22:00.004+09:00

ive heard stories that staying too long in front of the computer would expose people to some form of ions that will cause negative emotions.

i think thats exactly whats happening to me right now.

im super irritated by EVERYTHING.
even some of my closest friends.

i really need a break.
like just going out to the beach
or swimming for hours
or slp without having anything to worry about at all, without nightmares or even dreams.

roommate says it could be because im not used to being 'alone'
but this isnt the way it should be

i should be doing fine,
in fact, just until yesterday, i was!
wth is going on.

sick

2009-10-28T18:57:00.004+09:00

i think im falling sick.
no, i AM falling sick.
whole body just feels more and more lethargic everyday
it just wont function with a nap
then i will have so slp late
and wake up early
and the routine just keeps continuin.
and my red eyes are not coming back to its original colour.
small red eyes. argh how nice. ;(

i feel like just sitting in an aircon room,
reading a book
and just letting time pass.

temporary?

2009-10-27T20:28:00.002+09:00

i was just reading my past posts and realised my point of having this blog has totalllly been ignored. LOL
i initially started it to write to my friends in singapore so i wouldnt forget but then it became ranting about how horrible my day has been or what a horrible nightmare i had.

argh i totally missed my dinner.

anyway. yup so as i was saying, i was just reading my past posts
and guess what i saw. the "my man criteria"

so i just copied it. and im gonna paste it here and make CHANGES to it HAHAH
well i'll know how much ive matured HOHO

1) FAITHFUL
2) NO COMPUTER GAMES PLEASE. one experience was more than enough. i dont want him to be too engrossed in sth tt everything else becomes UN-IMPORTANT. dont bother being in a relationship if u cant commit.
3) RELIABLE. someone i can call and depend on even at the last minute knowing he'd help.
4) NOT TOO SKINNY nor FAT. ie, HEALTHY ie, heavier than ME
5) NOT TOO TALKATIVE nor QUIET. i want him to tell me things he doesnt like or likes abt me so i can be better. but i wouldnt want him to be bragging about himself either.
6) HUMBLE. yes, no bragging.
7) HONEST. white lies for special events and surprises are ok. but NOT to 'prevent me from hurting'. it'll eventually hurt more. if you dont feel like meeting me today, it's fine. tell me u need some time off for yourself. (i'm currently studying with the book "MEN ARE FOR MARS WOMEN ARE FROM VENUS. so yup i will be MORE understanding HAHAH)
8) NOT TOOO NICE TO EVERYONE. i wanna be special yea? i wouldnt want my bf to be sweet and nice and be the 'shoulder to lean on' for every other girl.
9) SENSITIVE and TOLERANT. sensitive to my mood and feelings, but tolerant of my temper and slowness.
10) APPRECIATE THE LITTLE THINGS I DO. i cant buy him a car or a mansion!
11) SERIOUSLY, he should really love ME, not anything else. (PLEASE dont ask me to put make up for u or dress up for u. i think u should love me more for being so myself around you.)
12) SWEET but just to me please. no sweet talk. just actions. no no no sweet talking.

ok. i havent changed much but ya.
we'll see again a few months ltr (:

argh

2009-10-27T03:00:00.002+09:00

i like it today
but i want more
yet im afraid to ask for any more
for i know you'd be more than ready to give more
while i will not be able to take it anymore
cos i know so well im not ready to give any more.

nightmare

2009-10-26T19:01:00.003+09:00

had the worst nightmare of the yr
that ass wanted to murder me for some reason
probably he couldnt take the shock tt thr were ppl out thr who didnt like him and didn think he was the best
he wanted to SALT me to death la!

i wanted to jump out of the window
and he pulled me back in by grabbing my hair
and said "think u can end ur life so easily?"

omg its been ages since i woke up crying and screamming

tissue paper

2009-10-25T15:24:00.002+09:00

ok i couldnt think of another title again.
so yup. thats the first thing i saw -- tissue paper
lol

anyway
i am stillllllllll in a dilemma
should i STRAIGHTEN MY HAIR OR NOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
!@#%^&*(*^%$#@#$%^%$#@#$%^%$#$%^&*(*&^%%^&#@#%^^$%^&*(*&^%$#@#$%^&*

i shouldnt be doing this

2009-10-24T16:41:00.003+09:00

ok no point regretting what ive not done for the entire day
but the scarier thing is that this mid term report is due TMW and
im still not very concerned about it.
something's super wrong w me.

anyway.
yeap i want to lose weight. maybe about 4 kg.
i need a person to regulate my diet for me
argh.

im in a serious dilemma.
i have one more issue of 'the argus' left while im a reporter. i.e one more month of writing left.
if i do continue next semester i will be promoted to be the associate editor.
if i dont, i will be able to do other things like taekwondo, dance classes, caligraphy classes, blind-dates, focus on my work, meet more friends, be more active in my course etc.

i wouldnt say i havent enjoyed this semester
yes, it was hard
calling up people for interviews and writing dont know how many billion proposals.
but i love writing.
the sense of fulfillment when the magazine arrives.
with ur big name inside it, before the article uve written starts off.

but if i choose to continue
1) no more holidays for me. means im not gg to sg anymore. yup. anymore.
2) i ll get fatter
3) hardly any time for my family-- dont even have to think about having a bf.
4) i have to continue working with some ppl i dont get along well with (i ll elaborate on this later)
5)

1) i will have $$$$
2) quite alot of $$$$
3) valuable experience and training
4)
5)

ah i dunno.
i have 2 months to decide but its driving me nuts.

knocked in the head AGAIN.

2009-10-23T18:34:00.001+09:00

ok
i gained weight
yea. i admit tt. i acknowledge it.
i felt myself gaining the weight.
but THIS wasnt what i expected.
fk. i was always satisfied with my legs. at least they were not FAT.
ok maybe thighs abit fat but
calves were OK. to me at least. ah
but
but
but
but
but
omg. this is damn shocking im gonna cry.
this feels worst that getting 'U' for econs and chemistry.

knocked in the head

2009-10-23T11:44:00.002+09:00

woot i feel super knocked in the head.
as if i got back-stabbed or sth.
you know.. the feeling of 'un-finished-ness' when
your faeces starts off well, coming out smooth and nice
and then suddenly someone hurries you outside the door
so you gotta cut it halfway, just when it's about to end
that 'left-over' feeling. yeap
thats exactly how im feeling now,
not literally but yeap!

argh.
my last paper was for the module "ENGLISH WRITING"
so OBVIOUSLY i thought the paper would be essay style. go thr, write a paper and come out.
who thought it would be definition based:
"define what is
- topic sentence
- transition word
- attention getter
- guide
- subtopic sentence
- inference senence"
etc

ok it wasnt THAT hard but it was definitely unexpected
roommate laughed at me
saying i deserved it for webcaming the entire night
arrgggh

anyway its over
im gonna go get CIRCLE-LENSES
to make my eyes look bigger ARGH
maybe brown this time lol

cant wait for next week
im gonna
1) do my hair
2) go sign up for regular facial
3) start on my last article of the semester
4) buy winter clothes
5) maybe bungee jump w roomie
6) train tour with bestie
7) throw my notes away

(:

yeap yeap
ok i feel like going to the loo now zzzzzzz

hey jo.

2009-10-22T00:47:00.002+09:00

hey josiah
i wanted to send u an email
or a letter but thought this will be sweeter (:

sorry i got upset over what u said just now
im feeling super bad now cos i know youre probably tossing around in your slp
if u arent....hmmmm (:
then.. erm. nice. u shouldnt go on reading any further. heheh

just wanna let u know
im happy with everything now
and we should be thankful for what we r sharing. it's not an ordinary friendship we share and everyone knows it.
as extraordinary as adrian and my friendship
but different in a totally different way (:

so dont make what happened today affect our friendship ok?
sorry about my temper.
i think my 'de-stress bomb' fell unto you
and i took ur casual comments seriously and got upset

you know our friendship's stronger than that (:

see one post just just just for you
so continue smiling as u did when u started reading this (:

when u really miss me u can go aj and look at the cement floor we left our 'markings' in (: hehehe

i miss you jo.
sorry for making you sad.

(: (:

and stop smiling la pig (:

confused

2009-10-21T18:29:00.001+09:00

oh no.
all the while i thought 'yea im gonna be an event planner event planner'
but what the hell?
i just realised this is not it.
it's not enough.
i want more.
omg greedy me.

cactus

2009-10-21T15:36:00.004+09:00

a random title i know but i couldnt think of one so i just wrote down the first thing i saw.

ok it's wednesday today.
OCT21. which means HMM like 4months to my sweet 20 hahaha
i told that to my roommate and she just ignored me and sang her song aloud! HOW NICE!! HAHAHA

mid-terms arent over yet but the major ones are. so yeap. i can take a break and take things slow today. today's papers were really not to my liking. i slpt for like 2 hours, studied 13 hours and the quality of the paper was like PRIMARY school standard? im not saying it was easy and i did really well, no, tts not what i mean. i mean FILL IN THE BLANKS?!?!?! what kinda university paper is that!!!! seriously.
oh wells. just felt like i worked too hard for nothing. im not gonna be doing this during final terms.
ok enough complaining.

im gonna talk about nice things today,
and try to make myself happy before i go and take my long deserved nap.

for some really interesting reason that i know not of,
i recently miss people whom i wasnt extremely close to..
people i think i could connect with but never had enough chance to;.

and one of them
whom i particularly miss ALOT.
is nicholas ng STH ok forgot his chinese name. xiang ni or sth HOHO nono xiang,,,,yi? yi xiang? siang? ah dunno la

anyway.
yeap.. my logistics saigang warrior
my pw boy
my redcross mate
anyymore? dunno
i think we had alot of chances to be better friends than we alr are but well
his eyes were always following some type of plant that was ROUND AND RED. hmm guess who? HAHAH
PHYLLIS are you reading this? hahaha

if there are just a few things i vividly rmb
it would be the time i really had to cry freely after the break up
and we played the smacking game at the SL place.
i still thank him for tt. him and adrian. yeap.
and the lollipop when the three girls in our pw group were having our PMSes.
qiyi you know how much i love you now (:

yeap
nic was always complaining but
if thr were three precious males i had to pick from aj
he'd definitely be one of them

so i decided to post a pic of him although i look horrible.
orghhh., ahahahah (:
nic you better be smiling at this post. it's like 70% dedicated to you! LOL

miss you nic ^^

2010.2009

2009-10-20T21:27:00.002+09:00

its 20-10-2009
just like it that the numbers fit so well
feels like there's an optimistic "next yr" to look forward to.

like...
20092008
20082007
20072006
20062005 --> OH this is is special ^^

hahhah ok
i just realised sth abt myself

i come onlime more often
i chat more often
i webcam more often
i slp more often
i eat more often
i slack more often
i blog more often
i laze around more often
i clean the room more often
i write letters more often
i use the phone more often

during exam periods or crucial periods.

anyone majoring in psychology?
i need treatment,
urgently.

7 chapters!!! ARGH!

it's just impossible

2009-10-20T20:25:00.003+09:00

NOW I KNOW
IT JUST ISNT POSSIBLE
IT JUST ISNT GONNA WORK.
I CANT CHANGE MYSELF.

AHHH HOW COULD I LET A 1 HOUR NAP BECOME 4 HOURS???
WHEN IVE GOT SOOOO MUCH WORK TO DO
ARGH I HATE THIS

I SLPT TO MUCH NOW IM HAVING A HEADACHE
DIAO.....

SIGH.

my roommate was supposed to wake me up :S

im not emo

2009-10-19T01:23:00.004+09:00

ok mid term starts today
im not even halfway done with my revision
but i just love the fact that im studying!
this is siao-ness but yeap,
hahaha stressed and tired but unlike tt stupid chemistry, i feel like i am DOING STH MEANINGFUL.

hehehe terence sent me a sms one day
"hahaha emo!"
ok i dont know whether he was referring to ME being emo or HIM being emo
but i will assume he meant I AM EMO. so he actually LAUGHED at me for being emo,.
but im not!
so many ppl are asking me if im ok
this is weird

ive never been feeling better!

since sec 3
i always had someone i could depend on
but things are a little more different this year.

since sec 3 till end of 2008
ive only been single for one year.
but that one year was soooooooooo occupied with a levels and 'healing'
i didnt feel as if i was single at all.

then this yr.
it's been barely a few months since my last love ended
and boy, it hurt alot more this time.

but seeing tt he moved on gave me the courage to move on as well
i just hope the day we will smile at each other when we dump in the streets will come
and come soon, in fact.

anyway my point is that
im really enjoying singlehood now.
im doing so many things and creating so many memories
with precious people

when a guy comes along
maybe things will be different

but right now
i have changed alot i think
i dont want to commit anymore and dont wanna try another r.s tt would destroy tt friendship so dear.

so terence im not emo., seriously
havent been better u should look at how fat ive gotten (:

heck with all.

2009-10-16T02:23:00.001+09:00

tell you what.
let's start over.

this person called 'j'

2009-10-13T02:27:00.002+09:00

hey 'j'
i misss you.

^^

2009-10-04T23:42:00.001+09:00

cant believe i took these pictures

less than 1 hour after ending everything

with that ass.

hahahhaha

sorry dude.

room-mate

2009-10-04T23:38:00.002+09:00

straightened my hair as a try-out... hahahha

when it becomes impossible

2009-09-28T18:44:00.002+09:00

really thought you could come.
was soooo looking forward to it.
as if it was gonna solve anything im going through right now
maybe it'd leave me with a bigger scar
but i didnt care anyway
i just wanted to meet you again.

YAY

2009-09-20T22:22:00.000+09:00

it's september ^^

2009-09-18T21:39:00.002+09:00

wow i almost forgot my password to get myself logged in here? (:
finally. seriously finally three weeks of non-stop busy-ness has finally paid off.
ok
not exactly. maybe 60%
sunday would be hell for me
but well
it's the FINAL round
so yup im gonna do it, and WELL it will be done.

i just happened to be talking about PHYSICS with my other reporters
and i realised i forgot the three laws of newton.
so here. copied and pasted.
hahahhahhahha

Newton's laws of motion are three physical laws that form the basis for classical mechanics. They are:
In the absence of a net external force, a body either is at rest or moves with constant velocity.
The net external force on a body is equal to the mass of that body times its acceleration; F = ma. Alternatively, force is proportional to the time derivative of momentum.
Whenever a first body exerts a force F on a second body, the second body exerts a force −F on the first body. F and −F are equal in magnitude and opposite in direction.

OVER

2009-08-16T14:28:00.000+09:00

argh i so want this to be over!

it's been so long since i wrote here haha

SINGAPORE

2009-07-23T13:03:00.002+09:00

i cant believe im writing this only now
but finallly the internet's working!
cant remember the order of stuff anymore!! :( ppl tell me if u need to be added :)

friday:
brunch over at ron's.
he cooked spaghetti and fried fish?
the veggie tasted like peanut which was really cool!
he insisted the mint tasted like mint but well, i really couldnt taste it!
but all in all, it was a wonderful meal :) thank you <3
it's not often tt people cook specially for me HEHEHEEEEE this honour!
we watched 'big fish' in the living room and he fell asleep!
hehehheheheheh what he does in his slp i shall not disclose :P

saturday:
arrun!
phoebe!
adrian + josiah!
04/07!!

sunday:
church+adrian!
terence!

maple + beishan + xiaowei + wenting!!!

evan + mervyn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is what i remember for now
i'll fill up the details soon!

SINGAPORE

2009-07-09T19:06:00.004+09:00

Tuesday:

went over to jingfeng's around lunch time.
watched some hk cop-drama.
the guys were super handsome. and he thinks he's as good-looking.
if only he were anywhere close!
he said the girls were pretty. BUT, i'm sure i look ABIT better. i have a sharper jaw line than the prettiest girl LORRRRRR!!
uploaded the pictures i took so far because my computer has some major problems.
he didnt allow me to put up the one and only pic of us because he looks ugly.
i mean, doesnt he always? xp hahhah
he thinks im still too skinny. BUT i got 8KG fatter. not 8G. - and still too ugly.
anyway he fetched me home and we had a long talk by the pool.
im glad i still have him as one of my closest friends after all that we've been through.
im sure HE feels the same way! HAHAHHA

dinner with kenneth. omg he got so.....BIG!
but he has this thing about him that makes me feel confortable around.
it was really cool that he drives too, the driving wheel made him look ABIT more mature.
but thats better than nothing right? for a guy who thinks stingray 'stinks' ;P oops :)
it is really quite a wonder that we have actually kept in contact after the many things that happened. i must be a really really really understanding girl! wahahhaha

he drove me home and mel happened to be waiting at my gate.
he stopped the car right in front of her and she thought she was gonna be kidnapped.
WELLLLL she thinks so highly of herself right!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAAH!

but even if i were her i would think the same way, i mean, LOOK AT KENNETH

and everyone would understand why. brrr. hahaha

kenneth dont hate me :P

anyways, so maple mel and i finally met up and decided to go get some alcohol. we had like $10+ each and wanted to settle for something worth the money. we looked at the alcohol percentage. mel and i were like "hey 6% for $18, okay lah~" and maple went "6%?!??!?! so little! not worth the money! we should get higher one!"

well........we settled for the 6% one. and she took one sip and went "SOOOO BITTTTTTTER!!!!" and added half a can of peach jolly shandy(0.5% alcohol) to 'dilute' it. DIAO!!!! "so little" eh maple? hahahahhahahahahahah

we talked through the night taking pictures under the blanket and talking about everything and nothing at all :) slping in the same room and being so coomfortable in your friends' presence is indeed a blessing i believe. oh no! im starting to love sleepovers!

Wednesday:

woke up late with maple and mel. ate the yam cake that maple made. it was probably one of the best ones ive tasted :)
she should cook for me when im pregnant next time ;p and ate some muffin cupcakes my mummy bought for us.
it;s really a pity that yuanxin didnt come. it would have been 25% more fun :D

jonathan only had a little time left for me so we met up right after my friends left.
he's got a girlfriend now! KOREAN! hahahahhaha
quite cool really :) its nice to see my good friend committing minus the clubbing hehh :)

met another group of aj girls today - phyuthinn janice qiyi and eunice!
so happened my slippers came off the moment i reached bugis. (jonathan chose this over another HAHAHAHA im gonna push the blame unto him haha) so we shopped for a new shoe.
once again i realised -- I HATE SHOPPING!
we had macs for lunch and talked quite alot. catching up time.
it felt so good :):) theyve become a big part of my life sooo unknowingly.

left early to meet my mother. bought a bag and a pair of earrings for my friend in korea :)

once home i started getting ready for the concert as esplanade.
ajband has improved so much!
met ms sia and ms leong, big figures in my cedar life and aj as well.
seeing them made me realise how time really flies and how much we've aged.
jared and i ate at tcc at citylink after the concert.
talked about some stuff but the few things i rmb is that he actually COMPLIMENTED me. can you believe it? JARED LIEW - the guy who NEVER, i mean NEVER says ANYTHING good about me said "quite impressed actually". aj band's performance must have done something to him HAHA! but it definitely meant alot. :) you should do it more often, jared. haha

when i reached home and after bathing, i got a sudden craving for instant noodles.
i went to the kitchen and on-ed the gas tap. and it blew up right in front of my face and body. supposedly some gas leak somewhere. my face is peeling,, my eye-brow and eye lashes are gone. such a lucky thing my fringe was up (so i still hav some fringe left to cover my eyelashes and brows) and my specs were on (or id be blind by now).
and though i cried all night cos of the pain on my left leg (no more hair :''''(!!!!)
im so thankful to God i was the one who got it and not too seriously.
if i didnt on the gas tap that night,
the entire house could have been damaged
and my mummy's life could have been at risk if she had done the same thing the next morning.

i had to take two dosages of medicine to make myself fall asleep.

Thursday:

Phew, i spent the day brooooooooding and whinnnnning and complaaaaaainnnnning to my mummy.

then i went to aj to collect my cert.

so sad i had to cancell all my plans today because there's no way i can wear shoes.
and i havent started any form of studying. dead. so freaking dead. :S

SINGAPORE DAY??? LOST COUNT

2009-07-06T01:54:00.002+09:00

friday:

woke up late. supposed to meet maple at 1245 at serangoon mrt station
but i left the house around tt time
she called while i was rushing to the train station
i tried to pretend i was alr in the train until the stupiiiid bus had to speed pass me and make that noise. SIGH. but i was like 10+ minutes late
we met up with mel, beishan, and xiao wei at little india station. maple and i happened to have this weird craving for specifically INDIAN - ROTi - PRATA :)
yuan xin happens to live in BOONKENG, one stop away and she reached the latest! but we love her anyway. oh i missed out the funniest part.
xiaowei and maple apparently chatted online tt morning before we met up and there happened to be some mis-communication somewhere, xiaowei ended up being the only one 'DRESS-ED'!
we made so much noise in the train station @.@

we had like indian food (lots of it...forgot the names alr though, maple, update me on this + ur pics) and super duper delicious snow.....flakes? what was tt called????
mango and soursop,, delicious!!!!!! OISHI!
we were behaving like tourists and i realised we didnt know singapore much.
it was a new experience into indian culture all over again!
and maple was actually surprised that most of us carry handiplasts around.
we gossiped a lot too until we decided there was not enough time.
so........mel yx n maple will be slping over on tuesday night :):)

then i went to my mother's kindergarten, initially with the idea of having dinner with my pops before meeting jingfeng for supper maybe.
but daddy came to the kindergarten just too late so we just came back home.
i changed into a more comfortable attire and went to meet jingfeng.
i was so hungry i ate 3 donuts before meeting him. he thinks i eat very little but thats in fact not true at all. :p

well he was in his 'smart4' attire
and apparently those in the uniform are not allowed to hold a girl's hand or much less hug kisss smooooch etc. or they'd be charged or sent to some place or thing called the DB - not dragon boat. detention something.
it was super fun holding on to his sleeve while walking. he was sooooo worried he'd be charged.
"yeongeun, please, please, later i'll be charged!!!, please, please, pleassssssse."
we had some bbq chicken cutlet at ice cube at serangoon gardens, the chilli sauce was sooo spicy! and had the famous magic potion ice cream. the alcohol was quite strong i must say :)
then we came to my condominium, and talked and talked(?) until about 1130.
he kept commenting on how ugly i looked ㅡ.ㅡ
most interesting thing, after all these years one thing that hasnt changed about him would be his smell! not that its nice, though ;p

saturday:

adrian's belated bday celebration with his secondary school friends! aston's and mind cafe!
dinner at jumbo with parents!
aaron lake!

sunday:

church with adrian! supposed to go with jonathan. but he overslept :S
lunch with honghao and supposedly dennis too BUT he didnt turn up! arcade and dinosaur killing and lots of photo-taking!
lota of talking and movie and dinner with daniel!
wine with daddy mummy and uncle!
heart to heart talk with jerald!!!

monday!!!!!!!

breakfast with xiaowei!
lunch with audrey!
dinner with daddy mummy and uncle!

SINGAPORE DAY2 & DAY3

2009-07-03T10:54:00.002+09:00

july 1 -

ended up going to bishan to buy that dress with my mum.
had din tai fung! omg it tasetes different from the one in korea.
cant even rmb how it tasted like there.

then i met up with ronald and watched ice age3
really really cute show!
evan was calling me throughout my movie
and when i called her after the movie she happened to be at my house already!

so yup i had to go home immediately and she slept over at my house.
her first time slping over and my first time having someone slp over too.
so cool :)
we slept at around 4+ and woke up at 11.

july 2 -

thankfully wy caroline and phyllis havent reached yet!
right after bathing they came and we talked talked and talked talked.

then we went to bishan for lunch at pastamania
caroline couldnt stop taking pictures i wondered who was the one being the 'tourist'
ahahahha
then we played at the arcade
oh let me ANNOUNCE here
amongst wy carol and PHY, there's someone here who didnt manage to pass BTT
it's easy to guess right? ;p

then i met my mummy at toa payoh
shopped for some shorts
and then went to novena to have dinner

:):)

SINGAPORE DAY1 and DAY2

2009-07-01T13:22:00.002+09:00

30th june -

i havent been exercising for too long. gymed for like 30 minutes only and i couldnt get out of bed the next moment.

i finally got myself to bathe and went to plaza singapura to meet my mummy
triumph bra was on sale. madness. but i was too lazy to try so i didnt get to buy any.
i still prefer la senza.
anyway i bought like 2 polo tees from fila and 2 from hush puppies and some random tops.
i decided im gonna dress up more often from now on.
in case some people mistake my 'comfortability' as 'insincerity', again.

then i was gonna buy a one piece dress from G2000 but the size was too big.

then we met daddy and went to chomps. omg the smell was overwhelming.
we ate stingay and chicken and ahhhhhhhhhh *drools* sotong and sugar cane juice and beer!
only daddy and i drank. mummy doesnt take alcohol very well. she was impressed tt i didnt get drunk though my face got kinda red. :)

then i met maple
the first SINGAPORE FRIEND im meeting in this trip :)
so and her mum baked me lemon cheese cake. havent tried it yet but im having it for lunch.
im supposed to lose weight ya? :X
we talked for 1-2 hours? dont know how fast time flew

then i met russell
SECOND singapore friend :)
he drives!!!!!!!!! damn cool!
he kept bullying me about my voice!!!!! :(
we met for like 40 minutes only but still it was enjoyable! meet up again ya russell?

1july-

woke up for breakfast again.
then i slept again till 12.

im gonna stay home today to start on my hw :)
cutting newspapers and etc :)
boring but i like to think im doing meaningful intellectual things even while im enjoying myself in singapore.

and im so gonna swim today.
too much food :)

^^ back in singapore

2009-06-30T08:26:00.002+09:00

weee!!! im back im back!
the weathers soooo humid and i couldnt sleep at all last night cos of the heat
but still
i lovvvvvveeeeeeeeee singapore.
place i can confidently call 'home'.
i missed fried egg so much.
had breakfast at 6 am with my parents. will do so everyday till i leave.

results are out.
kinda satisfactory.
but B+ for chinese?!?!? sigh. it's beginners class and i got a B+.
tt was a disappointment.
but an average grade of A is fine, just for now.
gotta improve my GPA next term.

anyway, back to singapore.
lunch plans are kinda made, there;re still a few days left :)
i brought my holiday hw to singapore.
i hope i can finish them before i go back or i'd be dead -.-

ahhh im back to slp for now ^^

2 months

2009-06-28T14:38:00.000+09:00

could have been.

:)

2009-06-26T16:11:00.000+09:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

TECK KENG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

healing

2009-06-25T01:41:00.001+09:00

maple.
you're the best ^^
so is your quote.

"if he cannot handle you at your worst, he doesn't deserve you at your best"

그댄 행복에 살텐데

2009-06-24T01:49:00.002+09:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=usnBfOnupps

혼자인 시간이 싫어 시계를 되돌려 봤죠
앞으로 앞으로 그대를 만나게
그러다 또 하루만 갔죠
다시 돌아와 줄 거라고 나보다 아파할 거라고
내 맘이 내 맘을 눈물이 눈물을
다독이며 보내 온 거죠
넌 나를 버렸다는 미안함도 잊고
그댄 행복에 살텐데

왜 또 생각하니
왜 또 전화기를 보니
왜 그 사진을 다시 꺼냈니
왜 또 멍해졌니
닮은 뒷모습을 봤니
왜 나를 버린 사람 잊지 못하니

그대 스쳐갔던 흔적이 그대 할퀴고 간 상처가
너무나 많아서 자꾸만 아파서
눈물도 알아서 흐르죠

넌 나를 버렸다는 미안함도 잊고
그댄 행복에 살텐데

왜 또 생각하니
왜 또 전화기를 보니
왜 그 사진을 다시 꺼냈니
왜 또 멍해졌니
닮은 뒷모습을 봤니
왜 나를 버린 사람 잊지 못하니

사랑 같은 거 영원 같은 거
내겐 없잖아 우

왜 또 생각하니
왜 또 전화기를 보니
왜 그 사진을 다시 꺼냈니
왜 또 멍해졌니
닮은 뒷모습을 봤니
왜 나를 버린 사람 잊지 못하니

today

2009-06-23T02:59:00.002+09:00

happy things.
think happy things.
yeongeun. think. think. think happy thoughts.
think. think. think happy.
think happy.
think.

think think think think think think think

nononono

dont think of that. thats not what you should be thinking of. no. not that.
dont think of that. not that yeongeun.

nono think happy thoughts.
yeongeun
lee yeongeun
think.
think happy thoughts you can do it.
you can do it.
i am okay.
i am okay.
i have to be okay.

i cant not be okay right?
hurry think you idiot think
think think think think think think think think
think only happy thoughts.
yeongeun think.
you cant even filter your thoughts.
and you idoit, you cant even settle this damn problem.

be strong yeongeun
be strong

dont dont dont dont dont dont stop this race.

rain

2009-06-21T01:23:00.002+09:00

it poured today.
got drenched and down with a slight fever and throbbing headache.
term has officially ended.
it really feels like it as my room gets emptied bit by bit.

moving over to my sister;s place for the vacation
and i wonder if it means a brand new start for me.

i've told the seniors about quitting
but i feel so bad leaving those friends behind
what should i do?

it just feels like i have ended everything single thing of the first sem in one shot. one week.
no, maybe 3 days.

gosh i just wish that very special person back.

post-exams

2009-06-17T22:19:00.002+09:00

exams are officially over.
went to e-mart to get boxes. almost died.
packed 4 boxes with only CLOTHES. theres still somemore clothes to last me for at least 2 weeks when im leaving sunday.
cant believe there were so much clothes in this tiny room.
i'll miss this tiny room..

yx and her bball clique has come to korea!
im meeting them at dongdaemun market this friday.
tentatively thats the schedule i really hope everything will go soothly and i will be able to meet them. meeting those friends would definitely be a booster to whatever sadness i had about not being able to return to singapore during this holidays.
thank god for this opportunity really.

if only evan madeline jo and adrian can make it here tgt one day too.

oh wells.
time to clear things up yup.
:)

i miss my mummy..
packing my stuff makes me wanna cry.......

Technology

2009-06-14T23:19:00.000+09:00

A day before my exam and here I am, sitting in front of my laptop, talking to my friends on the phone and the internet simultaneously.

I have never been techno-savvy and was never left alone to meddle with any form of electronic device because I always ended up making things worse.

Practically everyone who knows me knows how bad I am with computers.
The word ‘wireless’ used so widely in the internet world was so foreign to me, I really thought it meant computers without wires.

But being away from the place that is more ‘home’ to me then home itself, I am finally appreciating technology.

Emails were never my liking and I logged in to MSN just to let time pass.
Cameras were meant for pictures of myself, handphones were for normal daily conversations like “are you going to be late today,”, or “let’s meet at six downstairs.”

But now, it’s different.

Reading emails from those so special to me are pure joy.
MSN lets me ‘go back’ to those times I spent with them there.
Cameras, especially web-cameras are few ways I can witness the changes in them, or the new outfit they’ve bought, or a new pair of spectacles they made.
Handphones are for more meaningful conversations like “how’re you doing,”, “I miss you”, “when are you coming back?”

Technology has helped me so much to cope with the loneliness and homesickness I have been having since I came to Korea.

Technology has so naturally become part of people’s lives. We can’t live without it. But I want to raise a question, are we truly appreciating what we have right now?

I think we should take a look at our message inbox in our emails and phone, observe the kind of conversation we are having with those people we regard as special around us, look at the photos saved in our phones.

And think.
Shouldn’t we take full advantage of this technology that is within our reach?

I just got another message.
“We had a gathering 2day n it feels weird w/o u (=”

There.
This is where we should start. ^^
Today. Right now.

6-14 kiss day

2009-06-14T13:14:00.002+09:00

like i mentioned in one of my ealiest posts,
every 14th of the month represents a 'special day'.
it so happens june14, today, is kiss day!
really interesting eh?
so couples are supposed to kiss MORE today..
and singles............can kiss our soft toys or....roommate?
ahhahah

i slept for 11 hours!
this is crazy
im so dead
i love this bed
the thought that this would no longer be my bed 1 week later...
:'(

okay i should bathe and get started on GRAMMAR again.
omg!
exams start tmw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mozzies

2009-06-13T20:38:00.001+09:00

this room must be breeding mosquitos. i just killed another 2.
how come they're so big??????!!!!!

Baachus-D

2009-06-13T15:48:00.002+09:00

Writing paper's over. I am emotionless.
One 'emotion' that I have been trained to hard to 'feel'.

The first time i ever failed an exam was in secondary1.
Home-economics theory paper. 11/30.
I remember crying, just the thought of my mother's glaring eyes made me shiver, the thought that I had to have the 'parent's signature' line signed by the next morning, haunted me, making me reach out for another tissue paper.

first failure never tasted so bitter then.

but then again, life went on.
like the saying goes, every failure makes you stronger.
i guess i just got 'stronger' the wrong way.

Failures came after failures.
History...then maths...then chemistry...then biology...social studies...then geography
i think i failed every single subject i ever took in secondary school at least one, except maybe art and music. it drove me to study harder, trying to perfect my maths that were never more than 45/100 in secondary school. having social studies tuition. tell me, who ever has this kinda tuition!?!

then came junior college,
failure no longer became a surprise to me
i mean 'shock'.
i dont remember crying over failing my economics paper or maths or hell, chemistry.
i've also developed the 'habit' of not bothering to check how many questions i answered wrongly, nono, more like correctly since they were easier to count.

is that good or bad?
if failure was an anti-biotic,
my 'bateria' of mind, heart, and body is already immue to it.
is that good or bad?

whether it's good or bad
one thing i know for sure is that
i wanna stop taking that anti-biotic.
if it's not making me any better, it's also destroying the healthy 'cells' in me.
my self-esteem
my pride
my happiness
my care-free-ness

i need to stop it before it gets the entire me destroyed.
yup.

anyway,
today's paper wasn't all too bad.
2 hours of sleep has been worth it.
but it doesn't mean the anti-biotic pills are out of reach.
which probably means
it would be another 2-3 hours of sleep for tonight
and also for the next one week.

no more anti-biotic.

dreams

2009-06-12T19:33:00.001+09:00

Four: I wanted to be a mother.
Five: I wanted to be the president’s wife.
Six: I wanted to be the president.
Seven: I wanted to be a teacher.
Ten: I wanted to doctor.
Fifteen: I wanted to be a counsellor.
Seventeen: I wanted to be a vet/ social worker for animals.
Eighteen: I wanted to be a psychologist.

Nineteen: Event Planner

dreams keep changing.
would this be permanent?
or would it change again?

save me someone!

2009-06-11T22:02:00.003+09:00

zzz im still in the office.
into my 13th page.
i tried writing out all the subheadings.
looks like it's gonna be at least 28 pages.
oh god.
i really HAVE to finish it by today! :(

2nd bowl of instant cup noodles.
im gonna lose all my hair at this rate.

i still need to mug for my writing exam im having this saturday.
if i dont pass it im not gonna be able to graduate.
i need an A to increase my overall GPA since i screwed up ytd's exams.
zzz

OOH!

2009-06-11T16:09:00.001+09:00

i just killed a mosquito.
it's as big as a fly.
will upload the picture of it DEAD as soon as my exams are over ^^
go to helllllllll you MOZZIE!

Office

2009-06-11T15:59:00.002+09:00

can't believe im blogging even more when it's the exam period!
i am totally broke for this month
eating into my emergency allowance
recording a negative growth of wealth
(eat into government revenues. oo still rmb some stuff abt it)

though i seriously suck at economics UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
i mean, we all did quite badly for it during school days hhahaha 'Ungraded'
but i think its kinda helping me out quite a lot.
it's definitely a more useful topic to learn compared to Mr. Chemistry.

i seriously dont find myself examining the contents of a ANYTHING and say "OH THATS FeO2 and that's the organic compound XXX sth."
Can't rmb a thing, toot. hah sorry ms soh! ^^
i never got to love that subject as you wanted me too!

im in the office right now.
came here to write my grammar notes
on adjectives and adverbs, semantics and sentence structure
most worthwhile subject to learn but definitely the HARDEST.
im done only with the first page.
i should learn not to care too much abt the fonts.
hehehe i have changed it like the 8th time in the past 30 minutes.

hmm or i should make my own font since my handwriting's not too bad. hehehe

okok back to adverbs and their characteristics.

write again when i get bored. ^^

'black' day

2009-06-10T16:33:00.002+09:00

two papers finally completed.
i couldnt remember the difference between the definition of
'launched a satellite' and 'the satellite blasted off'.
so i mixed them up.
seemed pretty much the same to me. but oh wells, it's over.

sleepless night -> no breakfast -> paper 1 -> no lunch -> paper 2 -> class -> NOW
no dinner YET
supposed to have a birthday party for my friend today but they're not here yet!
im starved :( and i realised it's just 4.41pm which means i've gotta wait like another 2 hours for dinner time. argh

and he hung up on me
one of the things i really really really really hate.
what an 'ENERGY BOOSTER' to my awful day.
...toot....tooot........tooooot............
ARGH!

oh and i JUST got told off for using this computer.
seriously they should actually thank me for even coming here.
argh. another 'vitamin tablet' huh.

and what's wrong with her recently?
i mean yea we all are having exams. we all are stressed and we all are rushing for time.
what makes her exams 'MORE' important? jeez.

i miss $2 chicken rice.
i miss home.

i miss going for a walk with doolie.
i miss her.
argh i miss her.
arghhh i miss her so much.

june, here i come!

2009-06-08T02:11:00.003+09:00

june is already here.
flowers are reallllllllllly nice!
temperature's realllllllllllllllllllllllllllllly hot!

time really flies.
and it's time to burn midnight oils again.

started my mugging today.

drank two packs of ginseng tea just to get started on the work.
it didnt work
so i looked up some 'concentration stimulating songs' from youtube.
and ended up falling asleep..

1 week of mugging
another week of last minute studying

then here comes the long awaited holidays. first long-term holiday!
it's really sad that i cant visit singapore this time round
but i'd make sure i save up enough to actually
visit singapore and the merlion during winter hols.

it's 2:16am now
having a headache from lack of sleep but 'non-sleeppppiness' from the two cups of Iced americano, my recent favorite coffee.
it's bitter but there's no 'after taste' left on the tongue. just love it
i even heard it helps to digest and break down big fat molecules and all.
oh oh and there's this black-coffee diet, so yup since
i think black coffee and americano are kinda similar so, hmm, i could lose some weight this term too :)

anyway let me list down what im being tested on this time round

wed: media english + english interpretation and translation
fri: yoga
sat: korean understanding and writing
mon: writing + chinese
tue: grammar(horror!!!) + understanding cultural anthropology(another horror)
wed: conversation class essay
thurs: currently chinese if there's none on monday

anyway!
most surprising thing i find myself missing about singapore: THE STRAITS TIMES
omg.

my weekend

2009-05-17T02:47:00.003+09:00

yay im done with the 5 reports

and also the article clip for the magazine.

i cant rmb what else im left with, shouldve written it down.

i still have to do chinese hw

and write my notes for media eng, translation and grammar

i wish i had time to write back to my friends!

this blog is becoming like a to-do-list for me hahaha

friday was great, went to yonsei, my sister's university

goodness it was GREAT GREAT GREAT
if only i applied to yonsei tooo.

too greedy of me to have applied to the most difficult course. sigh.

the school's beautiful

my school's nice too but

yonsei was magnificent

took some photos :D

with my roomie and sis!

see how fat ive gotten :'(

one down, five more to go!

2009-05-12T16:31:00.002+09:00

assignments after assignments..
my table is being piled up with drafts after drafts,
spilled coffee marks and papers and table,
unwashed mugs of coffee, water, gatorade, ginseng extracts, chips and crumps,
empty water bottles, tissue papers,
one bi~~~~g stack of TIME magazine waiting to be read for my 5 reports due 15th
pen and stationery lying everywhere,
mask to get myself protected from influenza A but covered in dust so i'd fall sick anyway
loose sheets of paper from different classes of the week
AHHHH
i'm lucky there arent any insects yet
and it's amazing i still have the habit of making my bed every morning. thank GOD!
hah!

finally handed in my first essay today
5 more to go, 3 pages each.

and given another 2 more assignments.

one of them to be up on the june issue of our school magazine!
due 20th, i better get started on it soon. which means i have to go around staring at every poster stuck on the staircase walls and bulletin boards and pick on major event to attend, plan the interview questions and my interviewee and everything. (is there such a word as interviewee?? no idea)

wish me luck.
i misssssssssssssssss ban mian and mee siam.

^^

2009-05-10T01:36:00.002+09:00

this is probably the best weekend for me since i've come to korea
it's true i got 6 reports due by this week
but heck.
i love it nonetheless!
i'll worry about them another day!! :)

adrian

2009-04-26T01:59:00.002+09:00

argh.
adrian i dont mean to vent my frustrations on you

but argghhh
i just happen to do tt to you all the time.

sorry.

really.

04/07

2009-04-23T23:34:00.004+09:00

i was just lazing around my room (havent started on my essay)
and clicking endlessly on the 100 photos on facebook
and i stopped at the picture i took with my junior college classmates during the last dinner we had before i left.
then my heart started to...clench?
the next photo i clicked on was of me and pohsin and
then next was with wenying
then i started becoming abit emo and start whining to my roomie tt i miss them
then i hurriedly came here
and for some stupid reason,
tears fill my eyes.

i start to recall the memories we had
too much to name but enough to make me smile to myself again
the barbecue parties, wenjie flinging(?) us into the pool while i was still carrying the roll of aluminium foil,
our angel and mortal games,
maung "giving us a ride" on my pull cart while the boys were busy coooking
the projectwork complaints tt we had
huikeat and the fashion show
adrian and his whining
wenjie and his pillow during the resilience talk
phyllis and her weird shoes
phyuthinn and her "im gonna be a nun"-ness
janice and our "gossips"
wenying and our "marriage"
claire and her muffins and cakes and snakes WAHAH (oops)
nicholas and his hairless-arms
jaryl and wenjie and anyuan and their card games
qiyi and her "da-yong-san-pan"
aiya! so many more!!!

now i cant rmb them.
ahhh. we should start a blog and write down all the memories before we forget them!

anyways
i missssssssssss you guys, 04/07

A BREAK

2009-04-23T14:37:00.002+09:00

EXAMS OVER FOR THIS WEEK
YAY! hope i did okay :]

im gonna enjoy my weekend with no curfew!
maybe try out the 찜질방 and go to the zoo or theme park or something.
and take pictures!!! finally i can go get my camera from my sisters house :D:D
oh i loveeeeeee spring!!!
then when the weekend comes to an end, i will have to start mugging for my next test :S arggh!

anyway practically every guy i know in my life is in army now
hahah alll botak
except a few older people like benjamin and younger people like russell and anyuan :D haha
i should have made more friends in singapore!!
anyway amry guys i hope you all are doing well, take care of your health and i'll look forward to seeing u all again AFTER YOU HAVE MORE HAIR.
:)

i just remembered i got an essay due tmw!!!
AH!

SADDDDDNESS

2009-04-19T17:00:00.002+09:00

JONATHAN SEOW KIAN TECK doesnt want me to go back to singapore.
HMMPH!
LOUSY!
Maybe i shouldnt :'(

count down

2009-04-15T03:09:00.002+09:00

Mid term EXAM:
21st April : ENGLISH GRAMMAR
22nd April : ENGLISH CONVERSATION
23rd April : CHINESE

6th May : MEDIA ENGLISH + CURRENT AFFAIRS TRANSLATION
12th May : CULTURAL ANTHROPOLOGY REPORT
27th May : CURRENT AFFAIRS TRANSLATION

3rd June : MEDIA ENGLISH
10th June : CURRENT AFFAIRS TRANSLATION

if only essense of chicken could do wonders!

God i leave my health to you
let me be well mentally emotionally and physically
and give me the capacity to concentrate for long hours despite little sleep
give me the emotional support and let me triumph after this race
dont allow me to give up and stop halfway
let me find joy in studying
and dont let my loneliness be an obstacle but let me be able to turn this into motivation and strength.
all these i pray in jesus' name;
amen!

into the night

2009-04-13T01:58:00.004+09:00

its exactly 2.00am right now and im still sitting in front of the desk. (i have no idea how to change the time for this blog. someone tell me! SHAZA!)

- trying to figure out how im really gonna study this book - GRAMMAR.
yeap i should be sleeping now ive got class in the morning tmw,
but my tummy's growling and the expensive americano coffee i had just 2-3 hours ago is taking its effect.
so here i am. not-studying-while-i-should-be-but-chatting-and-writing-my-blog!

i started this blog to write to my friends and recall those memories i have
but i think im ending up complaining about my day! HMM

talking about friends....
i missed quite alot of them today!

i particularly missed jingfeng
really wanna wish him HAPPY BIRTHDAY (:
i was walking down the streets of myeongdong on saturday and they were giving out free roses.
then i couldnt help but smile as the memory of him giving me fake flowers "because they last longer" came across my thoughts.

and for some weird reason, nic and huikeat!
* the minimart downstairs is having an offer for sushi-s (buy one sushi roll, u get one free lollipop)
then i recalled that particular evening when the three girls phyllis qiyi and i were in some PMS mood, not being able to keep the discussion going.
he came up to us the next day with three lollipops, asking us to chill. hahahha
:) one of the greatest friends and teammate ive worked with.
* huikeat and his masterpiece portrait of me :)
i think i look farrrrr better than that drawing though, i have bigger eyes than THAT!!! :)
hahaha but yeap, i have to admit i was touched by the thought of you, sitting down and sketching me while thinking of me (i hope). i really really appreciate it :)

maple!
i was clearing my desk to study and the card she sent me dropped out.
purple kinda defines her and whenever i see a certain shade of purple, she CREEEPS into my mind..BRRRR
im still ever grateful to maple and her parents+sister for fetching me to school EVERYDAY until O levels ended.
im sure it would have been quite troublesome as timings had to be accurate..and she had to call me every morning "yeongeun come down".
seriously, maple,
i'll fetch your kids to school next time if u come and live near me :D
well, i wont just stop at the NICE PART!
the scar on my knee, maple you know the story better HMMPH
and the bullying that you caused because i got unto the wrong car that morning
and so much more. you owe me big time for the amount of laughter i brought you :) heh
wow there's so much to talk about you, maple
i'll dedicate one post just for you when i misss you terrrrrrrribly :)

wells, my grammar book is calling out to me
it wants my attention :''''''(

CHEERS to a better week ahead!
tmw will be a better day!

ㅠㅠㅠ

2009-04-12T21:29:00.002+09:00

8 days left.
nothing done.
still lost.
god. i need a miracle.

I WILL

2009-04-12T19:57:00.002+09:00

Recently this song has filled my life.it's sooo nice. its like a soothing background music when im studying and a lullaby when im turning in for bed.so i decided to write the lyrics down (:

Who knows how long i've loved you
you know i love you still
will i wait a lonely lifetime?
if you want me to i will

for if i ever saw you
i didn't catch your name
but it never really mattered
i will always feel the same

love you forever and forever
love you with all my heart
love you whenever we're together
love you when we're apart

and when at last i find you
your song will fill the air
sing it loud so i can hear you
make it easy to be near you
for the things you do endear you to me
oh, you know i will, i will

busy life

2009-04-04T23:43:00.003+09:00

it's been slightly more than a month since school has started, and the 'freshness' of being a 'fresh'man is slowly disappearing as we get accustomed to the life as an university student.

being involved in two cca's that play a big part in the school and taking 5 major modules in the first semester is definitely no small feat as pressure of whether i can perform well and balance my time is building up.
i think im currently coping well though :)
gotta thank god for that.
studying is somewhat no longer like a chore to me, it's becoming a habit, something i seek time for.
okay....not EXACTLY. not STUDYING either. maybe just doing homework :P

as time passes, i realise my dreams are drawing closer.
dream is like plasticine to me right now
how i want to mould it,
how i want the outcome to be,

its up to me.

and then again, my motivation just steers up,
and im ready for another 'drive'
another attempt to create just a little more beautiful 'masterpiece'.

[The most valuable person in my life]

2009-03-22T18:35:00.002+09:00

She’s a bit short.
She has a round face.
She has small, short fingers.
Hmm, she’s not too pretty too, actually.

She’s a horrible cook.
She hardly cleans her room.
She’s almost never punctual.
She has a weird sense of fashion, I must say.

But …
When she cries, she doesn’t look too good, but my heart cries with her,
When she laughs, she doesn’t sound too good – like a hyena, but I can’t help but smile with her,
When she snores, I can’t sleep, but I feel peace that I am with her,
When she trips, I laugh at her, but my heart wishes the scar would erase soon.

When she hears a nice song she thinks I might like, she calls me, and sings it for me.
When she sees a nice shirt on sale, she calls me, and asks me which colour I like.
When I drop by her place for a visit, I leave with bags and arms full of things she wants me to have.
When I call her in the middle of the night, she complains, but she listens till I fall asleep first.

We share the same birthday, exactly three years apart.
She says I’m her birthday present.
I say, she’s MY birthday present.
God sent her here earlier to make my life what it is today; me, what I am right now.
God may not have given me beauty, wealth, status or sexy curves, but I have to be the most blessed person to have such a great person to call – my OWN sister.

I love you, sis.

:)

2009-03-12T19:56:00.002+09:00

at last. :)
im starting to get a hang of the pace of life here im speaking 99.9% of korean and 0.1% of english im starting to worry whether id lose my english :P

so ppl in singapore please call me often to talk to me.
if u really wishhhh to hear my voice, tell me. i'll call you.
but, lets try to speak AMERICAN ENGLISH ;p
my roommate doesnt understand what im saying when i use singlish! HAHAH

anyway
this saturday is WHITE DAY
korea has allooooot of days meant for couples
even BLACK DAYS for singles hahah
valentines day is a day the girl prepares sth (usually sweets choc etc) for her bf or ...male friends
white day is the opposite, boy gets the girl sth..

then i started thinking about the kinda guy I want!
heeeeeh ooo im inspired to make a list here
the list would most definitely keep changing but..
for NOW

1) FAITHFUL
2) NO COMPUTER GAMES PLEASE. one experience was more than enough. i dont want him to be too engrossed in sth tt everything else becomes NOT-IMPORTANT. dont bother being in a relationship if u cant commit.
3) RELIABLE. someone i can call and depend on even at the last minute knowing he'd help.
4) NOT TOO SKINNY nor FAT. ie, HEALTHY
5) NOT TOO TALKATIVE nor QUIET. i want him to tell me things he doesnt like or likes abt me so i can be better.
6) HONEST. white lies for special events and surprises are ok. but NOT to 'prevent me from hurting'. it'll eventually hurt more.
7) NOT TOOO NICE TO EVERYONE. i wanna be special yea? i wouldnt want my bf to be sweet and nice and be the 'shoulder to lean on' for every other girl.
8) SENSITIVE and TOLERANT. sensitive to my mood and feelings, but tolerant of my temper and slowness.
9) APPRECIATE THE LITTLE THINGS I DO. i cant buy him a car or a mansion!
10) SWEET but just to me please ;)

ok...thats it for today HAHAHA
i think i'll never get married at this rate.

another long day

2009-03-10T23:37:00.002+09:00

it's been another long day for me today
it's hard to describe my day but yup i wish spring would come soon

FINALLY!

2009-03-04T20:57:00.003+09:00

FINALLLLLY i get to sit in front of the com and think abt the happenings and all!!!

i got the time table i wanted with the help of my senior and really i gotta thank her for it!

today is wednesday! day 3 of my uni life.
more correct to say DAY 2 because we didnt do anything on the first day other than fighting to get the desired time table and professors in front of the computers in the PC room at the exact same time.
so i am super lucky :D

wednesday is my longest day with 6 hours of class
today being the first day we have like 30 min of lessons instead of 2 hours
and im gladdd i live in the hostel so its convenient for me just slp anyyyyytime i want :D

and officially
i claim my digital camera LOST. :'''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''(
i was hoping to take pictures of the school and my new friends and my room and my room mate and my seniors and my study room and my laundry room and blah blah
im sad BOO..

mummy just came and left yesterday
she handed me the other presents i wasnt able to bring over to korea from the airport
and some letters really made me cry all over
so i decided that i will try to write abt tt person(s) whenever i can
thank you so much :D

slp is taking over me right now!!
i'll write again soon
but i have late night welcoming party tmw :)
might most probably end up drinking again though:(
hope i make more friends!!